Tag: Literature

The Widow

Koby, one of the dogs, welcomed me as soon as I entered the door. He is a black Belgian Malinois that acts as if he has known me for a long time. He looked so happy to see me again. Lucy got him when I have left the town, and he has only seen me on the few occasions that I visited. He jumped to me excitedly, then he laid on the floor asking to be petted. I crouched down to reach his belly. He smelled like the oregano leaves and his paws are full of dirt. On the floor, a few inches from where he lays are some random items that may have been left by the kids after playing: toys, clothes, powder bottle, drinking glass, Lucy’s lipstick, a piece of candy, shoes, doll, torn papers… Koby stood again and went off his way to the garden.

I sat on the chair to wait for Lucy. The twins said that she will be back soon.

Lucy has three kids: a teenager, perhaps seventeen or eighteen years old, and twin girls of about five or six years of age. She usually leaves them alone in the house when she needs to do her stuff. Whether it was for work of whatever, I have no idea. 

I remained sitting, making myself busy on the phone. Next to my chair is another chair stuffed with a pile of neatly folded clothes. I can smell the lingering fragrance of the detergent that Lucy uses.

Through the window, I could see Koby digging the soil. Near where he digs are some cooking herbs that Lucy planted: oregano, lemongrass, coriander, thyme. There were more but I could not recognize them from where I sit. Koby seemed to change his mind, stopped digging and decided to lay beside the oregano leaves. And then, I heard a growl beside me.. Kent, the other dog, is looking at me, scrutinizing my full intention of being in this very spot of the Earth. Around his neck is a collar. Not a usual dog collar, but one decorated by Lucy’s late husband.

I tried to make the look of “I am a good person” but Kent was not convinced. I have met this dog several times, even when he was still a puppy way, before Koby arrived. But he would always treat met this way once he sees me again after a long time.

Kent, go outside,” I heard the woman said. It was Lucy’s mother. She lives next door and checks on the kids whenever Lucy leaves.

Hey Natalie! How’s it going? It’s been like.. what? A year? Since I last saw you,” she said. “Lucy must be here by now. Oh! Hey, Mark! What have happened here?” she called Lucy’s teenage son. She was looking at the scattered mess on the floor. “Girls, come get your toys,” she said to the twins, “your mom will be upset with all these mess,” she said to them before she turned to me again. “Sorry, do you want some drinks?”

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Pollution

Foggy, smokey night

Show me what it’s like

To sleep in peaceful dreams.

Lovely moony light

Why stay behind

the cloudy dusts?

Shine like those nights

For lovers’ delight.

Where, oh sky, and when

Could I see you like back then

When bards sing of you

As starry, starry night?

Sleep Paralysis: A Glimpse into One of the Nights

I am seated in a chapel beside the 1-year old baby Halley*. (She was a child of my college friend who died last year.) Behind me, there are three elderly women. At the opposite pew, my brother Kuya Gil is seated beside his friends. My college bestfriend Danny sits at the pew in front of Kuya.
Halley cries so I called Danny. He comes right away and gets Halley. She starts smiling as if she is victorious. I laugh as I understand her pretend-cry.

The old woman behind me starts to cry. She laments that her time is fast approaching. The other women try to console her. Another girl who I knew in the university comes to the woman.

“My time is coming too,” she says. They are all crying.

Then one man in dark grey suit and tie enters the chapel. He stops halfway through the isle and stares at what is in front. He seems emotional. I grab his arm and try to talk to him but he is absorbed by the moment. He continues to walk forward crying.

I glance at my brother. He is chatting with his friends. And then….

What is he doing here? Why is Halley with us? Why am I in this place?

Halley must be with her father. Kuya is supposed to be in Canada. Danny is in Korea. And I am supposed to be… in bed.

No!! This just a dream. I am dreaming. I am back in my bed now. Now I am awake.. But no, I can’t move. Oh yes, this has happened thousands of times since I was a child. I know I only have to calm down. This is easier than when I am floating. I only have to relax my body till I gain control again. Then I will start moving my fingers and toes.

There, I can move them now. But my chest feels heavier. Wait! There’s someone awake. I am safe. They only just need to notice that I am having a “nightmare”. Then they will wake me up.

I will speak. I may not be understandable but whoever’s awake will hear me and realize what’s happening.

I am speaking. She noticed. I don’t know her, but she ‘looks’ nice. She is trying to wake me up. I still cannot move. My chest feels heavier. I can also hear my own heartbeats. They are becoming faster and louder.

Another person from outside the room is also awake.

“Maybe she’s already awake, but she can’t move,” she said to the first person awake.

“I want to wake her up, but I can’t reach her,” the first person said.

(I sleep at the higher bunk bed).

I am trying hard to relax my body. But what about my heartbeats? They are slowing down!!

I hear somebody else speaking.

“The window is open.”

I see hands from outside the window. They grab the window grills and now they are getting inside. I feel something coming up from my feet. And it’s as if something is piercing my side.

The dream!! It was about a funeral! It was about death!! Was it a warning? No way! I need to keep my heart beating. I will pray, but I will scream my prayer.

I am praying. But what are these prayers? I can’t understand them. What language is that?

Someone is now actually moving in the room. Oh yes, I know her. She’s my new roommate. There’s a light. It’s a light from a cellphone. It’s not enough. I will try to speak.

I want light. I am screaming. The new roommate is calling me. I still can’t wake up. I will call my friend who also happens to be my roommate.

“Arvie!”

“Ilaw!” (Light!)

I screamed for what felt like five minutes.

There! The room’s main light is on.

Arvie gets up and shakes me.

I am awake now. I look at my two roommates. They look back at me in horror.

It’s 5AM. I might fall asleep again. I know it will come back. I slapped myself and stayed awake.

I sent messages to my brother and my friend.

They replied that they, too, just woke up from a nightmare.
*Names were changed for privacy